DoomedtoReality

You know, I've been playing World of Warcraft lately. I've been playing it more then I should. I'm no freak like some of these people out there but I can have my moments. I'm level 70 right now and honestly I've begun to wonder why I keep playing??

Yes there are a good number of dungeons to do and they are fun(to an extent). Yes you can do raids into opposing faction terrority so you can PvP(or gank if your an ass fuck that does that). Really though, at this point in the game what is left?

Ever since that time I nearly drowned when I jumped off the boat in over my head and I couldn't swim, I've loved water.

Just today as I was in my 4x8 $50 pool jobby floating weightlessly, I was thinking to myself. I wonder if I should have been a fish? Really. I do wonder because theres just something about water I like.. or love. I believe I was a fish once but I believe I was a mean fish who got kicked down a karmic step and got re-incarnated as a human. I think I'd much rather be a fish. I love the feel of being wet, just gliding through the water, no resistance. Unlike above ground where you get dry cracked skin and the blazing sun and dry mouth, the pleasures of the ocean don't allow for that. Although being the human that I am now I dislike becoming pruny because that just feels weird.

The child is a gift and a curse at the same time
he is the best in humanity and a little of the worst
in his mother he brings out the best
to see her eyes and watch the love pour out of her
to know the child is nothing but pure love for his mother
the child knows no hate ....

(This was written in high school as an assignment after reading Johnny Got His Gun in which the main character is only a torso and he is only a mind confined to that torso.)

War, famine, pestilence and death. The apocalypses and signs of the end. Ever since man came to this planet death has plagued us. There is no way to get out of its way. It is our future and everythings future. Such a grim future to look forward to.

Death is the inevitable, unquestionable, unbiased force. Death can not see, hear, feel, taste, but it is still there. You can not bribe it, fool it or cheat it. There is no way to get away.

One can not describe it. The best description is sleeping, but while you sleep, you dream. Do you dream in death? One can not say. Is there and afterlife? One cannot say. People talk about a light at the end of the tunnel. What is that? One cannot say.

The future was unknown as he stepped out the door into the world he thought he once knew. It was a world of things he saw but did not understand and the understanding, as with many things, takes time. Time which he didn't have or time he didn't want to invest, he wanted to know. He took the step into this world and he began his travels into the unknown.

He always wanted to see more of this small planet and to know the things he did not know. To know and understand and be able to comprehend it all. It was no small task he quested to do and he knew it could not be done, not within his life time. So his challenge was to over come time. Find a way to continue his time on this world so he could come to know everything. To see the effects of history, to see history, as its known, in his one long lifetime in knowing and comprehending it and understanding how it works. The inner workings of the minute are a mind boggling thing and makes him wonder if time is truly an invention of man or a universal law that must be followed every way and by everything. To overcome time though creates problems though and he knows about this, it creates paradoxes that just multiple themselves into more problems... There could be a few ways to try to overcome time. There is the possibility of implanting your mind into a computer, which is a solid possibility but also means you need a massive computer. The thought of that truly intrigues him because if that is indeed possible his mind would not be limited by this human slowness of the physical and he could work mentally at an almost unlimited speed, recording and processing and expanding almost simultaneously. Someone would need to be on the outside though, to watch over everything.

I was once signed up for a webpage called Jedi Knights United. It was a place where people wrote stories about their training to become jedi knights and the founder would award us points, etc. I made a character called Apocalypse(because I like the word) and these are the stories I found that dealt with the JKU. I wrote these in 1999 before I started college. One of the files was wanky so the story is kind of cut-up but you'll get the gist I think... If by the very slim chance you might have been a member of that same site do comment or email me and let me know how it ended up.

Ok, so this is probably one of the weirder dreams I've had that I remember. It had something to do with me being in some kind of exchange program thing and I was transfered out to somewhere to work with this person(I forget what they did) but other people were transfered there from other places so there was a small group of us.

I generally realize that the point to authoring a website is to garner a following and amass an army that will one day conquer the world in your name so I'm destroying all manners of doing so by posting my personal bookmarks in open posts like this but I figured people should know what good sites are out there. Now given these are not all good sites but for some reason or another I bookmarked it and therefore it was interesting to me at one point. When you open this post you may be amazed at the shear numbers of links but keep in mind this is only about half of my file(this is the other half) and I've conceded to the fact I surf the web. I'm usually looking for something when I'm on here and these links are usually what I'm looking for. I read it and bookmark it for later inspection which I don't usually do but maybe, someday.

So here goes people...

So you probably thought the first half was bad? Well heres the rest of it baby all for your pleasure, because I like to give the pleasure. You may ask why I'm posting all these links since I've pretty much shattered my chance at anyone staying at this site at this point. Well its because I am a shelfless giver that loves giving shelves to those who don't know they need them. I care about you, the viewer and I want you to see all those sites you may not know about.

I'm sure you've enjoyed all the content on this site and are ready to move on to other goodness this spider web has to offer. I'm also sure you've seen the other half of my personal bookmarks and enjoyed those. Since you have enjoyed this site as much as you have I'm open to letting you go.

So alas heres yah goes...